Happy birthday to my first born young man now 5 years old today! So proud of this boy, he is a rare jewel to our family..we have given him gifts throughout the day, at school we threw a little party, it was memorable! But i think that tonight when we were winding down for bed, getting to our usual routine...of pierce brushing teeth, potty before bed, reading a story and tucking him in to pray..tonight i stayed by his bed just laying over him and rubbing his face; he turns over and says, "moma, i need you to rock me". So we are wrapped up with his music on, he ask me to sing "rock a by baby", i got through it twice and he was out in my arms..his body became limp you know and very heavy, at that moment it allowed me to remember how it felt to hold our lucas afterward when he passed, we had given him a precious bath, i wrapped him up and held him and just wept, i remember how heavy his body started getting..so tonight as i looked at pierce and the similarities b/t the both of them..i just thanked God for this level of PUrE Joy Pierce brings our lives, the healing he carries with him..i felt so covered by love and blessed to be his mother..
As this weekend unfolds, we will live and learn and bleed and break for our loss in just 2 short years! But the Grace is poured out in abundance over us and for that i am thankful for this journey..